Oi kamusta? Its weird not hearing anything from you. Pero its not that you should, pero ang weird lang kase right after your birthday wala na akong narinig from you. Hindi ko tuloy alam kung youre just plain busy, o meron akong nagawang mali.. o nasama sa baha yung cellphone mo. Kung galit ka, I wanna know, or sama ng loob o ayaw mo nalang talaga magtext, para alam ko diba. Kung galit ka, bakit? Kasi hindi ako nagpunta ng birthday mo? Diba ikaw din naman hindi nagpunta sa birthday ko? Quits lang dapat. Kaya kung yun yun, I dont think I deserve the cold shoulder, and be left in the dark like this. I just need to tell you this para din di ako magisip masyado. So tell me din what’s the matter alright. Like right now, I demand to know what’s up.

3:32 AM

Im busy and nagtatampo ako konti

 9:47 AM

Bakit ka nagtatampo?

(tbc)

I just hate it when the world is filled with bad music. Bad taste. Bad timing. Bad proportion. Actually, no proportion. There’s always a better this, or larger that. There”s no exact amount of anything everywhere. It’s visually unsettling.

Is there actually a time where you just get tired of trying to be happy because of some random.. mundane things around? Like when you try to look for something more behind that randomness to cause you to be really happy. You know, happiness with substance.

Or is that asking for too much? That, the fact that the random and mundane makes you happy is enough? I was actually told that I ask too many questions. But isnt life all about questions? But I really dont think i ask too many questions, much more the right ones.

But you know what’s even harder? When everything crashes down, and then you expect that there will be anyone, someone to pick you up, dust your ass off, give you milk and cookies and tuck you to bed, but there’s no one. That feeling makes you want to turn off the instinct of wanting another person to share your life with. You think that its better to live off alone, without the opinion of anyone or the permission of someone. If its only possible to literally cut off people from your life, you would choose that option in the blink of an eye.

It sucks when you realize that there are more people with problems heavier and more significant than yours. Makes you feel real small and… insignificant. That you dont have the right to feel burdened because your problem is nothing compared to them.

It sucks when you realize that you are tired. That the only thing you desire right now is escape. Even though escape is impossible. And not only escape is impossible, in fact, everything seems to be impossible.

But you still refuse to be jaded. You know inside your guts that you still have high hopes for everything. Not only for yourself, but for everyone. Even though you’re not sure if everyone  has high hopes for you.

And the only escape is sleep. Deep tired sleep. Just don’t think about tomorrow. For there’s still darkness to hide yourself from the rest of the world that only cares for what they see on the outside.

Attraction is the spark that ignites when you first kiss, Love is the look in your eyes when you finally pull away. – Demi Lovato

Or post stuff like that. Anything, to chronicle or draw the ambience of my day.

It actually started with a question. I wondered aloud about what could we be doing a year from now at this exact date.And what better way to do that than by blogging?

(to be continued….)

(written on the following day…)

Two Car Crashes And A Landslide Later..

I am currently enjoying BEP’s newest album. You know what, im kind of getting this trance/lounge/techno music, it makes my blood pump like the lights on the sound equalizer. Haha. I love it. I haven’t tried making this my jogging music, because for one thing, i haven’t jogged in eons and its always rainy here. Darn it.

I want to start putting things on my bucket list. I mean, life is very very uncertain, at least i wont cram if ever God had given me a deadline.

First thing on my list : BE A RUNAWAY.

3. What is irritating you now?
- time ticking slooooooooooowly

4. When did you last eat pizza?
- oh gah. I forgot. Hahaha.

5. Do you drink beer?
- only when I don’t have a choice.. haha

6. Do you have any famous friends?
- haha si Angel? Hahaha joke lang.. J

7. Are you any good at poker?
- no..im crap sa kahit anong sugal

8. What do you want more than anything?
- euphoria

9. Are you tired?
- nah, just sleepy.

10. Last spoken words you heard?
- “ganda ganda”

11. Have you ever kissed anyone named
Mike?
- nge

12. Besides your bed, what is your
favorite thing in your room?
- my closet

13. Pepsi or Coke?
- rootbeer. hehe

14. Have you ever thrown up?
- nope. Not anytime. haha

16. Do you enjoy piercings and tattoos?
- yeah. Slight masochist.

17. Taco bell or mc donalds
- taco bell for burritos and mcdonalds for float and fries

18. Are you restless?
- yes. Specially when I start to get bored

19. Is your computer desktop or a
laptop?
- desktop

21. How many friendster views do you
have?
- I don’t know, tinakwil ko na friendster account ko.

23. Do you believe dreams come true?
- im not sure, I’ll tell you when it happens

24. Last song you heard?
- gah, I forgot the title, but I know its by Mozart.

25. Do you like Batman?
- Christian Bale?Hell Yeah!

26. Who is in the room with you?
- clothes

27. What are you wearing on your feet?
- my 5 year old Chucks

28. What is/are your favorite pair of
shoes?
- chucks

29. Who was the last person you told
you love them?
- the bathroom wall. Haha ay that doesn’t count

30. What was the last thing you ate?
- cold hotdogs. Ah, thank God for cold hotdogs

31. What were you doing before this?
- talking to sir Kelvin

32. What is the closest item near you
that is blue?
- my green coffee tumbler

33. In your opinion what is the
weirdest thing listed on
goofysicons.com?
- eh?

34. What instant messaging service do
you use?
- PIDGIN

35. What is your favorite website?
- tumblr,facebook…twitter

36. Who’s house were you at last night?
- my house

37. What do you wear more, jeans or
sweatpants?
- jeans..

38. What is the last movie you watched?
- Eagle Eye! Goodness…

39. What do you currently hear right
now?
- tugstak music ni Red

40. When did you last buy a new dress?
- hmm…dude I bought pants.. last payday..haha

where is number 41?
- its between 40 and 42..haha

42. Where’s your favorite place to be?
- bed. Haha or baguio

43. Have you ever heard of the band
Our Lady Peace?
- no..can somebody educate me please?

44. Where is your mom?
- sa antipolo

45. Where do you sleep?
- bed,floor…kahit saan

46. Where do you shop the most?
- before sa ukay..hahaha..ngayon sa ukay padin..hahaha

47. Where did you get the shirt you’re
wearing?
- somebody gave it to me..oha oha..my famous fender shirt..

48. Coach Purse or NFL game tickets?
- ah, coach purse

49. Where was your default pic taken?
- gateway

50. Why did you pick your background
music?
-  I have no choice actually

51. Why did you kiss the last person
you kissed?
- hmm?

52. Are you happy with where you are?
- I demand euphoria, so happiness is not enough

54. Would you ever take someone back if
they cheated on you?
- hmm.pag ba nagsmile sya ng todo, why not..hahaha

55. Have you ever talked about
marriage with someone before?
- haha no.

56. Do you want someone you can’t have?
- ay tao?pede bang D90 nalang?haha

57. Do you believe love at first sight
exists?
- I guess.. I’ll tell you when it happens

58. Do you believe in celebrating
anniversaries?
- I’ll tell you when it happens

59. Do you believe that you can change
someone?
- before, but nah.i guess not

60. Would you ever consider getting
engaged or married right now?
- pupunta muna ako ng Thailand, tapos go, pwede na

another batch of old pictures revamped. the landscape was taken a year ago, i guess. it was a part of a portrait of my friend. the shoes, taken back in sophomore year in college. i was dying to do the colorsplashing on that photo for a while, i just found the time last night.